69novels Chapter 24
Chapter 24
【24】
I clearly remember that that afternoon, when Zhou Qingnian came to pick you up at the workshop, he walked out of the workshop door with his arms around your shoulders.The master took the bicycle and looked at your backs, his face changed suddenly. "Simin actually let him hug her!"
"No, absolutely not. You are blind." I said, pulling her back on the bicycle, squatting down and yelling that her stomach hurts.At that time, it was the peak time to get off work. If the master couldn't control himself and did something in public, the whole company would be famous.I dragged her and waited for Zhuo Ercong to arrive. We bought some cold dishes and beer, and the three of us went back to the dormitory.
Zhuo Ercong saw that the master was sullen all the time, so he persuaded him: "Isn't it because Zhou hugged Simin on the shoulder, what's the big deal?" After saying that, he hugged the master. "I hugged you too, let's see if you are missing anything?"
The master pushed Zhuo Ercong away, and said: "Kesimin actually allowed him to hug him!"
Zhuo Ercong said: "Xiao Yi, can you be reasonable? I know you are using Zhou Qingnian as a cover, but Zhou really likes Simin, is pursuing Simin seriously, and is seriously in love. What does he have? Wrong? Why can't men and women in love hold hands and hug shoulders?"
The master covered his face, and said half aloud: "It's all my fault, I shouldn't come up with such an idea."
Zhuo Ercong said: "Indeed, why should Zhou be taken advantage of by you? You can't stand seeing him hugging Simin's shoulder now, but in the future he will hug Simin's waist and hold Simin in his arms." , want to kiss or kiss further, what do you do?"
The master didn't make a sound, drinking beer cup after cup.After a while, Zhuo Ercong said abruptly: "Listen to my advice, let go." The master shook his head, no matter what Zhuo Ercong said, it was still the same sentence. "No, never give up!"
"Okay then." Zhuo Ercong put down his chopsticks and asked, "Then tell me, what are you, or you two, going to do? Like Simin suggested, she gets married, and you still date in private?"
"That's impossible. I persuaded her to come with me."
"Let's just think that your method is feasible. Going to an unfamiliar environment is less stressful. But Xiao Yi, have you thought about it? You are a child of the factory, and you entered the factory unwillingly. For you, this job is It doesn’t matter much. But like Simin Xiaonan and the others recruited students from outside, and they were able to enter our company. The family and I have paid a great price, and it is impossible to lose the job. Besides, even if Simin agrees to go with you, she still If there is a family barrier, can her parents agree?"
"According to what you're saying, we've lost our way?"
"Yes, there is no way." Zhuo Ercong nodded firmly.
"Why?" The master was a little excited. "We are in love, we have a good relationship, who have we provoked?"
"It doesn't matter who's offended." Zhuo Ercong said, "Xiao Yi, Xiao Nan and I understand and accept you, but it doesn't mean that others can understand and accept you. After all, you have chosen a different way of life from most people."
"Understanding is something that is in the category of consciousness. Who cares that they accept it? We just want to live our lives behind closed doors, can't we?"
"No, at least not here." Zhuo Ercong said: "This is a small place with outdated concepts. Don't try to do some rebellious actions to challenge the tradition. It's useless. In the end, you will only hurt yourself. If you insist , then you have to live forever in people’s criticism and saliva.”
Zhuo Ercong poured the wine, looked at the silent master, and continued: "Xiao Nan has always asked me to persuade you, today I will simply explain to you, I really admire you Xiao Yi, you Thoughtful, assertive and pursuing. You will be 27 this year. You can ignore the pressure of your family and the strange eyes around you, and still live the life you want to live alone. But Simin may not have the strength to resist pressure like you. You also know that in our company, a girl aged 22 or [-] is the golden season of love. With Simin's conditions, she should have been a college student with a diploma, or a factory boy with a good family background. Now because of you , using Zhou Qingnian as a pretense to talk about friends, you are harming her by doing this."
"Am I hurting Simin?"
"Isn't it? If you continue to consume her, you will only ruin her reputation. If you delay it for another two or three years, when she is 25 years old, I'm afraid Simin really has no choice. Would you like to look at her?" Just find someone to marry yourself? She is young, and many things are not thoughtful. How many years older than her, you have to think carefully and be responsible for her future. I still say that, let go, if you really Esmin."
The master was silent, and I didn't interrupt while they were talking.I think what Zhuo Ercong said is very reasonable, and it is impossible for the master not to have thought about it, and just let Zhuo Ercong say it, destroying all her only illusions, maybe she will feel desperate that way.
Later, when I sent Zhuo Ercong out, he repeatedly told me not to let go of my words, but to persuade the master to let go.Back in the dormitory, the master was still sitting blankly. I was about to clean up the dishes on the table when she grabbed my wrist and asked in a trembling voice, "Xiao Nan, did I really hurt Simin?"
The master's eyes at that time were scattered and violent. I avoided her face, gritted my teeth and said cruelly: "Master, I only know that Simin is in pain. You have lost shape since you didn't see her? And she is in a trance. Yes, recently cooking, either without salt, or several times, if this continues, I'm afraid she will collapse."
The master listened, and let go of me feebly.I noticed that her arm was very red and swollen. On the wound where she was cut in a dance hall fight before, she had five scars scalded at a [-]-degree angle, like a cross.I didn't find any alcohol in the dormitory, so I remembered the jug of strong white wine that Zhuo Ercong bought for my father, so I poured some and gave it to her to deal with. There was no reaction at all, just staring at me and asking: "Is this family just broken up like this?"
I bowed my head and didn't answer. At that time, my heart was in a state of agitation, and I was very afraid that she would do something beyond my control. I checked the time, and it was almost eleven o'clock. I regretted that Zhuo Ercong left early, and I was looking forward to You come back early.So, after treating the wound, I began to pour white wine into the master's cup and persuaded her to drink, thinking that she would be fine if she was drunk.
The master didn't refuse, and she drank as much as I poured. While drinking, she murmured about her feelings when she first met us, and the joy after we lived in the dormitory. She has a good memory and remembers many small things and details. Clearly.When she said those things, her tears flowed out as if a valve had been opened, dripping down to her chin, and then smashed down heavily.
I don't know how long it took, but the master spoke a little too much. I thought she was drunk, so I stepped forward to help her up, put her on the bed, and when she was about to take off her coat, she grabbed me and hugged me. Pulled, I fell out of bed, and then, and
Mo Xiaonan followed up a few times, but she still couldn't fluently describe everything that happened afterwards. Even though a full ten years had passed, she still felt ashamed when facing Simin.He buried his head weakly in his knees.
Luo Simin's thoughts also drifted back to ten years ago. She remembered that night when she went back to the dormitory, she opened the door and the room was filled with the smell of alcohol. In Xiao Yi's arms, the two hugged each other and slept soundly.Immediately, she seemed to have been hit hard on the back of the head, and she staggered and fell to the bed.
Her cry woke up Mo Xiaonan. Mo Xiaonan stared, and broke out of Xiao Yi's arms as if frightened, crawled back to the upper bunk in embarrassment, covered his head with a towel and cried, and Xiao Yi on the bed, no matter how she shook him, They were all motionless like a dead pig. She stood by the bed, her ears buzzing all the time. The scene just now stimulated her stomach to churn, so she turned around, opened the door and rushed out.
"As soon as you went out, I put on my clothes and chased you out." Mo Xiaonan raised his head and said, "I saw you sitting on the stone bench downstairs before returning to the room. At that time, I was in a mess. Suddenly, I couldn't figure it out. Simin, you know that the master treats me very well on weekdays. She treats me as an apprentice, friend, sister, and sometimes even a child, but there is no love in it. As for me, I respect her, admire her and like her, but I never thought that I would have any emotional and physical contact with the master. In my concept, the master is yours. At that time, I just felt ashamed to see you."
When Mo Xiaonan said this, he smiled weakly, and said: "Actually, Zhuo Ercong and I had already obtained a marriage certificate at that time, but we didn't share a room. That night was my first time. The master took it away. Moreover, what she kept whispering in my ear was: "Duo, don't go! Duo, we are together""
"Stop talking." Luo Simin turned his face away and stopped him.
"Many years later, when I think back to that night, I still feel sorry for you. Simin, I know that this incident hurt you a lot, please forgive me, but please don't resent Master, this incident is not her fault, perhaps it can only be It was a surprise."
Mo Xiaonan got up, handed a tissue to the weeping Luo Simin, and continued: "The next day, I followed you into the workshop, and I asked the master for leave. I bought breakfast, but I couldn't wake her up when I went back. Feeling cold hands and feet, I quickly called Zhuo Ercong, and when he came, he took the pot of liquor and yelled: "Silly girl, this is the original liquor I bought at the winery, for your father to make medicinal wine." , can’t drink like this, why did you pour her so much.” Then stretched out your index finger and put it in front of the master’s nose to test it. “Hurry up to the hospital, don’t get alcohol poisoning.” Take the master to the hospital, hang up the liquid, and she will drink it in the afternoon After waking up and talking, she couldn't remember drinking baijiu at all, and all her memories stayed in the time when Zhuo Ercong talked with her, that is to say, she didn't remember anything after Zhuo Ercong left."
"Is it possible? She will lose her memory at that time?" Luo Simin said in disbelief, "It's said that she is drunk and understands, but she lost her memory?"
"You don't have to doubt it, Simin. After drinking liquor to a certain extent, some memory loss will occur." Mo Xiaonan explained: "I have had a similar experience myself. I am secretly glad that Master can't remember what happened the night before. , at least everyone won’t be embarrassed. Back in the dormitory, she stared at the towel you washed your face with, reached out to touch it, and it was dry, so she asked: “Did Simin come back last night?” I couldn’t answer, so she ignored it. I dissuaded you and went to the workshop to find you. I didn't know until you arrived in your team that you had taken family leave and went back to your hometown with Zhou Qingnian."
Luo Simin said inexplicably: "I didn't go with Zhou, my father was hospitalized when I went home, and Zhou later came to my house, but I sent him back that day."
"Your master said it himself, saying that Zhou Qingnian was going to propose a marriage. That afternoon, the master wrote an application and made a report. At that time, the seventh factory was in urgent need of operators. After three or four days, she completed the formalities and was transferred. Yes. Zhuo Ercong said, this ending is good for both of you. So when you come back, no matter how you ask, I will be speechless except crying. The master will not see me anymore, saying that he will think of you when he sees me, and he will think of our past. That home. Soon after I got married, the three of us had no contact for more than three years. I only contacted the master again after the monkeys treated them in 2000. As for the woman, Cheng Lili, as far as I know, she They are older than the master, and they are laid-off female workers of the water pump factory. They met through the Internet in 02. In 03, the master bought out the length of service, and they have been living together since they left.”
After hearing this, Luo Simin didn't make a sound for a long time. She had mixed feelings in her heart. The truth that she had been trying to understand for a long time, now that she knew the answer, what could she do?Even without the cooperation of these kind-hearted people, how far could she and Xiao Yi go under the circumstances at that time?The two of them lost even the basic trust, perhaps as Zhuo Ercong said, such an ending is the best.
It turned out that when they turned around ten years ago, they had drifted away from each other, and what she stayed behind was only a back view of the past.Luo Simin sighed and burst into tears, perhaps, the dusty knot in his heart will gradually melt away, and will eventually turn into a wisp of thin smoke, blowing away with the autumn wind outside the window