expectations from the future

5. The simplicity of that age

The pleasant bell rings, and the boring class time is over.

This is the evening self-study in the second semester of the second year of high school, and the classroom in June is full of maddening heat.Facing the upcoming summer vacation, the students seem to have gotten used to not expecting it—anyway, they will be given various make-up classes.

You Zhen stretched her waist and tapped her numb neck.She still couldn't understand those bibles about mathematics. Even if she asked all the students in the class, she still couldn't understand it at all.Thinking of the girl with an adult soul here, she couldn't help showing a look of grief and indignation.Can her cute little Chu Xia score a few points in math? !As an enhanced version, she is still hovering in the hell of a dozen points! !Except for how many points can be scored by solid geometry, the magic of other function series depends entirely on God's will!

Compared with the physics that once made her want to die, it is much better.Maybe it has something to do with the new physics teacher's gentle and unhappy speech.As for mathematics—hehe, I can only blame the first teacher for taking too long to teach. By the time the new teacher arrives, Youzhen is already in a completely different time and space from others.

For an unintelligent student like her, the way the teacher teaches really matters.

"Hey, Youzhen, why haven't you gone to eat yet?" The students in the back seat all came back with their bought dinners and asked a little strangely.Wasn't this girl the fastest rusher before? It's strange that she is so inactive in eating today.

"Hmm... not too hungry... Huh? Why didn't Lu Xue come back with Chu Xia?" The students who didn't go to the overcrowded restaurant came in one after another with food. You Zhen saw that she was walking away with another girl. Lu Xue, who was approaching, raised her eyebrows.

"...Qi Yu, she's like this. Didn't she have a conflict with Kong Bai a while ago? This is Lu Xue again. Look, Lu Xue will break up with Chu Xia after a while." Now, later Meng Shan, who sits in the seat, doesn't like Qi Yu very much, so she whispers gossip to You Zhen.

"Oh..." Youzhen nodded thoughtfully, but did not follow Meng Shan's words.

This is the case among girls, occasionally they like to gossip about something together, and when your goals are the same, you will instantly become very good sisters.However, once you are unlucky enough to touch someone's thunder point, everything you said at the beginning will instantly make you the target of attack.Everything you reveal will become your weakness before others.The so-called best sister will be your worst enemy.

Gentlemen are cautious in their words, the ancients did not deceive me sincerely.

Of course, children at this age are still relatively innocent, and have not evolved into social experts ten years later.But Youzhen didn't intend to participate either, she couldn't make friends with people of her age.The difference in age and hobbies is doomed that even if there is a short-term happiness between them, they will not become the ultimate confidant.

Moreover, she remembered her, this little girl named Meng Shan.Studying is good, but because of height, I always sit at the back.Back then, Chu Xia had a cowardly and low self-esteem, and she was humbled to the point of dust during the relationship.This trait may lead to instinctive caring and friendly banter in initial exchanges, but the nature of events always changes.In the early summer, even if the bottom line was touched, she was afraid of resisting, afraid of being abandoned and isolated.I can only wait patiently for the tenderness of others.

Compromise again and again, as well as an ever-changing hidden layer of flattery, have slowly turned the former friendliness into a kind of 'bullying' that no one may have noticed.

Youzhen remembers that at that time, the girl always liked to make some jokes, and then the jokes turned into games, and the games turned into 'bullying'.

She clearly remembered the same night rest that time.Meng Shan and a few good girls in the class dragged her directly to the next class.Laughing and laughing all the way, there are classmates who know or don't know on both sides, with a strange excitement on their faces.

Even after such a long time, she couldn't forget the helplessness and fear at that moment.

No strength, no way to break free.

The personality is weak and irresistible.

Fear of being alone, unable to be angry.

However, even cowardice, even humbleness, even flattery.Nor could she stand the almost malicious din.

She remembered that when the dragging stopped, the strangeness that caught her eyes was clearly similar to her own class, but the fear of the strangeness almost swallowed her.Those girls from the other class frowned dissatisfiedly, and the boys who were still in that class gathered together and whispered with smiles on their faces.

She remembered that there was a boy from the other class who did not participate, and that boy had an expression of pity and mockery on his face.

She couldn't forget the time that spanned ten years.

The fear at that moment seemed like the whole world opened its ferocious claws towards her.

After that, it took her a long time before she dared to walk into an unfamiliar classroom alone, and it took her a long time before she dared to walk through the gathering place of her classmates alone.

She clearly remembered that when she graduated that year, she stood alone in the noisy class, feeling that everything around her seemed unreal.Then this girl named Meng Shan, who had terrified her deeply, walked towards her with a smile.

'Chu Xia, we are going on a trip, and there are almost people, do you want to join? '

'Hey, let me tell you, she's definitely not going to agree.Meng Shan, you still don't believe...'

'Ask what you are afraid of...'

Chu Xia once didn't understand why someone could talk to her with a smile after showing such physical disgust and dislike.

Ten years later, Chu Xia has come to understand that all those things that are horrific to her are just boring or funny jokes in the eyes of others.

So my early summer, you have to be strong.

You must understand that if your heart is not strong enough, blindly pleasing and obeying will only make your situation slide from the abyss to hell.At this time, the original friendliness will turn into alms from above, perhaps even the giver will not pay attention, and the jokes they are accustomed to have changed a little bit.

"Chu Xia, what did you eat? You Zhen was looking for you just now." Meng Shan smiled and waved to the girl who walked in with her head bowed.

"Hmm... I bought burritos..." The girl with glasses came over and said in an unaccustomed manner.The people she can talk to in class are actually the three girls in the front and back seats.Her tablemate Ji Wei, and Lu Xue and Zhang Shuang in the back seat.Meng Shan... The seat was too far away from her, this was the first time they had communicated with each other.

"burrito, let's buy it next time. It looks delicious." Meng Shan said to the little friend sitting next to her.

"You know this, you have to eat what people eat. You are a foodie." The girl pretended to be disgusted, but next time she would remind Meng Shan, who has a carefree personality, to buy the meal she agreed.

"Hey...Chu Xia, sit here and eat, I guess, after a while, Lu Xue will tell you that she won't eat with you! That person Qi Yu is so annoying, he steals other people's friends everywhere!" Even Lowered the voice but not much lower volume.This is not a girl who is 'scared' and gossips behind her back.Cheerful and enthusiastic personality.At about this age, going to the bathroom together, eating together, and going home from school together is the way to reflect the friendship between two people.

"Oh..." Chu Xia didn't know what to do when she was being talked about.I was a little apprehensive.Besides Lu Xue, who would accompany her to eat?She didn't want to be left alone.

"Speaking of which, I also want to eat burritos, Chu Xia, can you accompany me to buy them?" You Zhen smiled.

My early summer, you must understand that getting along with people cannot be forced, and any communication based on the premise of losing yourself will not bring you true friends.

At this time, Chu Xia is still timid and inferior, cautious but determined to define all the classmates who can talk as 'best friends'.

After Youzhen helped Xiao Chuxia celebrate her birthday, she deliberately kept her distance.The definition of friendship and the interaction with people around her cannot be explained by her. This kind of self-style formation must be done by Chu Xia herself.

Xiao Chuxia has to grow up on her own, understand how to get along with others, and how to define a suitable position for the people she knows.

But this time, with her here, her little Chuxia wouldn't fall so painfully.

"Well, okay. When I bought it, I saw that they still had a lot of cakes." Although he was very happy to be invited by other people, Chu Xia's gaze still stayed on Lu Xue who was sitting with Qi Yu and was smiling happily.A corner of my heart was slightly sour.

The author has something to say: There will always be a lot of troubles in life, but all the sufferings that seem like the sky is falling, will be sculpted by time to make us better decorations, and then, one day, we can , In a certain afternoon of singing birds and fragrant flowers, I opened some old diaries under the bright sunlight, and watched the heart-piercing heart-piercing back then.

Things are always moving in a good direction, and life will also move towards a bright future.Don't wallow in self-pity and self-pity when you should struggle the most, and you can't be satisfied with the short-term happiness at the moment when you should work hard the most.We can do more, we can do better.

above.Thanks to the little friends who can see here ↖(^ω^)↗I hope everyone can smile and recall the present tomorrow.